i know i can't be perfect.

It's been on my mind a lot lately.
I just really want to be kind.

And I'm not going to be perfect at it.
But I want to try.

There are a handful of people on this earth who would say that I am not a kind person at all.
But we all have our own versions of everything, don't we?

I just want to be kind.

Losing two of my uncles in just a few weeks time earlier this summer... it's just really made me look at time as such a limited thing. There's no promise to have any of it.

I want to forget past hurts... and I want to repair things I've done.
I still want to make healthy choices for my heart, while at the same time reaching out.

I just really want to be kind.
Anything else is too tiring.  
I have an almost three month old. I don't need another reason to be tired. Seriously.

I'm going to try to let things go and just give everything that I would want to get back.
Even when I'm so scared of the rejection.
Even when my self consiousness is rattling around my heart.  
I'm just going to try.